Do you ever feel like you should do #allthethings?? I do. I mean, I literally do. If I see something that I know I can do, or that interests me, I feel like I should be doing it. On top of that, I’m ultra impressionable – if I see someone doing something that I admire, it makes me want to do it too. I was also born with an entrepreneurial mind. I see business potential in everything around me. And because I like #allthethings and want to be #allthethings and do #allthethings I end up mentally exhausted #allthetime.
Realistically, I know doing #allthethings is not an option. I’m one person, right?!? But I can promise you, on a regular basis, I feel like I should be doing them. It’s a viscous mental cycle that offers me no rest. So it’s hard to know what I want to do with myself when I can’t focus on one thing for any length of time. And because I’m exhausted from all the mental gymnastics, I never actually commit. I end up hanging out in limbo-land. COMMIT is my One Word for 2018 – you can read more about that here.
Now, to be honest, I have owned a couple of small craft businesses that were successful for a time. Success is another one of those subjective words, so let me clarify- my businesses always made a profit. Never a ton of money, but a decent supplement to my husbands income. The nice thing about owning your own craft business is you can try #allthethings if you want to! And I did. I took a lot of custom orders which kept things fresh and fun… for a time. I loved working those businesses, until I didn’t. I eventually gave each one up because I found myself lacking desire and commitment while being mentally pulled off into new directions.
In an effort to narrow my mental focus, I’ve decided to start writing more. I want let go of the noise constantly fighting for my attention and settle my focus.
This, my friends, is where the self doubt comes pouring in. What am I going to write about? Does anyone want to hear what I have to say? Are my thoughts my own? Will those closest to me read my blog and think ‘geesh she is trying hard to be something she’s not.’ Will anyone relate to me?
As a blogger, how do you find the courage to open up if you don’t really know where you are going? Is it incredibly narcissistic to think I have something worth saying? Oh, how I envy those with the confidence to know. They have found their place, their passion, their purpose. My goal is to join them someday soon.