The List

I’ve already told you how much I enjoy marking things off my lists and today begins the process of marking things off that I need to let go of!  If you haven’t read my previous blog posts Trust the Process: Part 1 and Part 2, you can find them here and here.  Even if just for this season of life (life is fluid right?!?), I am desperate to stop mentally holding myself accountable for way too many things.  The end result is a scattered, pathetic attempt to survive the hustle and bustle of each day.  I’m ready to be intentional with not only my thoughts but also my actions.  The more I work towards this, the more I find that I’m really looking forward to narrowing my focus and spending time on the things that will help me be the best me!

How many of you jump from one thing to the next, doing only what needs to be done in any given instant?  All the while, never finding yourself truly present for the things that matter most?  Or if you are like me, are so incredibly scattered and spread thin that you have lost sight of what those things even are??

What started as me agreeing to participate in the One Word movement that has gained so much popularity in the past few years, has resulted in me making the choice to COMMIT to what is truly important to me.  I’ve decided to do so publicly in my desire to not only be transparent, but also to maintain accountability.  I’m choosing to no longer waste my thoughts and energy on things that tear me down and foster insecurities ultimately causing me to feel like a failure.

I’m marking off things that I’ve decided not to focus on at this time.  I’m rearranging and combining items.  I’ve also removed the categories.  I realize that some of what I’ve listed is just part of who I am, and will always be, but I’m ready to release myself from feeling like a failure for not trying to actively master or capitalize on every interest!

This is my list:

• harmful-chemical free food/non-GMO/local food • gluten free/dairy free • leaky gut/candida gut • allergies/severe mold allergies • get fit • cooking healthy nutritious meals for my family • education • energy • hormonal imbalance • thyroid disorder • recipes • essential oils • rest • juicing • meal planning • living with a bleeding disorder • Be a light • raising boys • one word movement/commit • new house • teaching my boys to focus more on the gospel, less on themselves • being more gospel focused • choosing joy • grace • interior design • encouraging women to see their own beauty/building others up • investing in relationships • creativity • organization • marriage/wife life • focus • hair styles/products • fearless • prayer • giving • family • planner/budgeting/saving • cleaning • being present • grateful • creating memories with my family/more experiences/less stuff • being transparent • blogging • small business owner • sales/marketing • hand lettering • all things DIY • painting • cutting toxins from products we use in our home •

I’m going to continue working with this list, as I know it will organically grow and change.  I’m looking forward to narrowing my focus and giving attention to the things I’ve taken the time to identify as most important to me right now ❤


Do you ever feel like you should do #allthethings??  I do.  I mean, I literally do.  If I see something that I know I can do, or that interests me, I feel like I should be doing it.  On top of that, I’m ultra impressionable – if I see someone doing something that I admire, it makes me want to do it too.  I was also born with an entrepreneurial mind.  I see business potential in everything around me.  And because I like #allthethings and want to be #allthethings and do #allthethings I end up mentally exhausted #allthetime.

Realistically, I know doing #allthethings is not an option.  I’m one person, right?!?  But I can promise you, on a regular basis, I feel like I should be doing them.  It’s a viscous mental cycle that offers me no rest.  So it’s hard to know what I want to do with myself when I can’t focus on one thing for any length of time.  And because I’m exhausted from all the mental gymnastics, I never actually commit.  I end up hanging out in limbo-land.  COMMIT is my One Word for 2018 – you can read more about that here.

Now, to be honest, I have owned a couple of small craft businesses that were successful for a time.  Success is another one of those subjective words, so let me clarify- my businesses always made a profit.  Never a ton of money, but a decent supplement to my husbands income.  The nice thing about owning your own craft business is you can try #allthethings if you want to!  And I did.  I took a lot of custom orders which kept things fresh and fun… for a time.  I loved working those businesses, until I didn’t.  I eventually gave each one up because I found myself lacking desire and commitment while being mentally pulled off into new directions.

In an effort to narrow my mental focus, I’ve decided to start writing more.  I want let go of the noise constantly fighting for my attention and settle my focus.

This, my friends, is where the self doubt comes pouring in.  What am I going to write about?  Does anyone want to hear what I have to say?  Are my thoughts my own?  Will those closest to me read my blog and think ‘geesh she is trying hard to be something she’s not.’  Will anyone relate to me?

As a blogger, how do you find the courage to open up if you don’t really know where you are going?  Is it incredibly narcissistic to think I have something worth saying?  Oh, how I envy those with the confidence to know.  They have found their place, their passion, their purpose.  My goal is to join them someday soon.


New Year, New You?

Welcome 2018!  It’s hard to believe we are ushering in a brand new year!  It doesn’t seem like that long ago, I was making my list of goals for 2017.  Each year, around the first of January, my husband and I take some time to think about things we would like to accomplish or improve on during the coming year.  We also like to reflect on our goals from the previous year.  While I’ve had some minor success achieving my goals over the years, I’m gonna be honest with you – more often than not, I’m in the exact same place I was when I wrote them down.  The goals I tend to set for myself are often vague and general.

Does anyone else do this?  Are you a goal setter?  Do you start each January with a ‘New Year, New You’ mentality?  Setting goals can be super motivating and the beginning of a new year always seems like just the right time to start.

I’ve only recently noticed that I choose goals that are not easily measured.  I suppose I think it saves me from facing “total failure” at the end of the year when I’m reflecting on how well I did or didn’t do.  For instance, I have been known to set the goal ‘Go to bed early’ instead of a more specific goal like ‘Go to bed at 10pm.’  ummmmm – early is subjective!  Undefined goals allow me lots of wiggle room when I’m rating my progress for the year.  And while playing it safe is definitely easier on my pride, (again -who likes to fail??) it makes it hard to summon motivation to work towards those goals and harder still, to feel like I ever actually achieve them.

In addition to padding my pride, and fear of failure, I find that I just can’t commit to setting specific goals.  I have so many different inspirations, aspirations, interests and hobbies that it’s really hard for me to narrow down my focus enough to make a concrete decision about anything – even something as seemingly simple as selecting my goals.

So, this year I’ve decided to try something new and participate in the One Word movement.  The idea behind One Word is to pick a single word that you would like to focus on throughout the year.  You can choose any word that speaks to you.

I love SO many words! Grace, Joy, Shine, Focus, Bright, Hope, Blessed, Intentional, Renew – the list goes on.  But, because I feel like I’m in constant limbo, lacking intentional direction right now, it only makes sense that my word for 2018 is:


I’m excited to explore commitment in various aspects of my life.  And I’m desperate to narrow my focus and have some direction!!!

I plan to use this blog as a place to log my journey as I learn to focus on my word and to commit to personal growth.  I am excited to see where this takes me!

Have you ever participated in the One Word movement?  Do you have your word already chosen??  If you haven’t ever tried it, I invite you to choose One Word and see where it takes you!